Monday, June 6, 2016

Hurt

Why would people really hurt me when I dare not begin to even think of hurting them?

Issue

Supposedly, someone I like can't focus and says I'm bad.

Problem

They keep adding more things.  They just can't quit it.

Problem

They are still bothering me about my right to tap things when I'm mad and other people are trying to irritate me talking and stuff.

Saturday, June 4, 2016

Not Tactual

They're going insane and won't stop.  I'm trying to sleep.

They are trashing this other relationship.

They are pathetic.

They just can't leave me alone.  They sent me a message from the relationship they are trying to destroy.  It was bad cuz this new one is bad.

Sassing Me

This person thinks they can follow my life in attempt to extract another relationship from happening.

Still

See, they are still finding fault in me.  Nothing is really happening.

I don't think they should be allowed to be mean like this.  What if it gets worse?

Problems

Bottom line, this "person" is mean to me.

Orlando is trying to "bring this person closer" and someone else to go away.  They are berserk and think they should "switch" me from people to others, like it's a sin to think about someone else.

My blood family seems to have gotten involved.  Overly involved.  They don't even do much for me.  Only my grandma seems to have an interest in me to talk more.

Look, I need to sleep, and they are up like some kind of irritation of the body.  They won't stop.

Sacrificing

All they do is tell me all day I can't have another relationship.

They messed up this one, too, and never want it to be ideal.

They are tacky talking and not doing.

Unfair

I see now, since I thought the word "k***" they are interrupting me when I think of someone else.  They didn't say they'd stop.  They're crazy.  I'm not working like this.  I know it's kept me from practicing.

They think I can be punished at my age and not them.

This is not very "attractive."

I said what they did, and they said, "You're punished," or something.

Insisting

They just add insults every time I post so I have to submit Word Captchas.

Being Mean

I'm being polite.  What does it take for you to quit being so mean?

What?

They said being normal was not good enough.

Nonsense

I supposedly deserve for this to go on and be hurt, when I said I don't take their kind of treatment already.

Sad

I am not on good terms, like I deserve to lose a relationship for my unfair life in private, if I think something by accident.

An Issue That Seems to Stick Now

They are annoying me.  I accidentally thought, "K*** him/her." a couple days ago.

They are taunting me in private in my room.  It seems to have cut off another relationship still, which was already partially cut.

About the issue, I recently thought, "You're s***," the night before, to the experimenters for whoever was pressuring me about if I curse in my head.  No one else puts up with this.  They just wouldn't stop, it seems, like a mad dog or some really bad nightmare.  I felt bad after.  They really are vicious, tho.  It's certainly not my fault.

Sorry this had to happen and whoever it has hurt, like family maybe and others too, like the experimenters and whoever.  I have been concerned for someone who thinks they have to be mean to me and in private supposedly via the experimenters.

Well, it seems they won't stop and I have to go to bed and wake up to the alarm so no ear plugs tonight.  I'll be in an orchestra during the school year, too, that meets twice a week.

Worried

I looked at a black lady in the bus for staring at me and putting her arm to my chair.  I was upset at her secret messages, and she would not stop and I was trapped with my stuff sitting next to her.  Other people were no help.

Negative Blood Family

Why are my blood family in my life so much in negative ways?  This experiment was supposed to be for the opposite.

Another Cherry on Top

They want to affect someone I look up to like they are inferior to me and feel stimulated in a bad way.

More Shit

I don't want my oldest paternal aunt lowering herself into my life like she knows what she's doing more than me as a person like I'm the one who needs older people to tell me what to do like she does much in my life.  I thought I could trust her.  I got an image of someone suffering that I look up to cuza her.  So what?  My mom was being obnoxious last night.  You can't fix that.  I was upset on the inside.  In life, I'm a caliber above my whole family in trust.  I can't listen to them.  The caliber is work and they don't have it but could if they were nice.  We could all have it and be happy, I'm not stopping that, but it doesn't seem it can happen.

They keep insisting I can't have a certain relationship and messing with my feelings.  Because I'm mad at how mean the other relationship is.

I'm not here to journal to these mean people.  I'm looking for help.  They need to be put to justice.

You know, that's pretty dangerous to be mean.  People could just be mean back.  What?  It's just the same thing you believe in.

Also, I was just in the bus and now eating.  People have been mean to me unless they are up at work.  They can't seem to make life work out.

I don't want their back talk on this because "something's related" and "a positive happened."  I can't follow that nonsense.  I try to conserve myself for what is right that I should do.

I can't believe anyone dare do that to this person, like they need a souvenier.

Someone just walked in and decided to be racist while I was there.  I just got in a bad habit of hitting my foot on the floor to get back at them.  They are the bad ones.  I already told that to someone who worked here about others.  I will try to forget about it.  People were looking at me in the bus insulting me, too.  They'll probably try to get at me for that, too.

This is sad and needs to be fixed, why I posted what I was able to post.  I am not the one that means any harm, not sure why you'd think this.

Problem

They said this mean relationship "won't really" do something.

I NEED TO GET TO BED

...

Problem

YOU RUINED IT

STOP IT

They just want me to have to use Word Captchas.

They won't quit it!

Stop telling me I messed it up!

Stupid

I'm not trading people and knowing just 1 person or something.

I WARNED YOU!

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MY NIGHT

Why can't I be left in peace!!!

Why don't you

quit judging me in the real world!  You are being / this is totally stupid!  You're really hacking away at a relationship saying the problems arise from it.  My mom was just being testy and irritable.  She's the cause, unfortunately.  Don't be stupid and superstitious just to look cute!  I don't care what others think.  I was pretty calm for too long.

Friday, June 3, 2016

Stop going crazy!

I was the civil one!

No!

You keep abusing me!

Mad

This relationship was not meant to be parted!  Why don't you leave me the fuck alone?

Mad

They keep stupidly telling me I can't have a relationship!

Very Mad

I feel wrong..

Problem - They won't stop.

They keep saying I can't have a relationship.  I got so mad at my mom but didn't say anything.  I cooled off, but they were reading  my mind.  They were just trying to irritate me.  They keep pushing me to someone else but "instead."  I came and posted about this and they wouldn't stop.  They are hitting at me in the heat of the moment.  My mom even said secretly, "Well, you just did it."

More

They set a buzzer on this relationship.

More

They keep insisting that a relationship I have is ruined because I was upset at another one.

cont.

Because I got fed up..

Ruining Relationships

One person I look up to was mean, and now they are rubbing in ruining another relationship.

Howcome..

Howcome I'm not here to talk to the people spying on me anymore?  Like when I was into Ellen DeGeneres and had time to be concerned about the show?

I'm not here to fight someone I look up to and hear nastiness.

Question

Why is someone being mean to me who I already look up to just because they live far away and want to be like everyone else famous?

I don't believe in the experimenters!

Still

I don't accept that treatment they said someone I look up to does.

They are constantly pushing at me with inappropriate things to do in a relationship.

I bet their lives behind closed doors are not like mine is.  What is this shit these people spying on me are doing now while I try to use my computer and it loads like they are talking to me like this every time with mean things?

Foolish

Ellen DeGeneres thinks I deserve to have all my relationships overcome by brattiness.  She does not seem to be in step with the way of things.

Talking at Me

I dunno who all thinks they can do this to me, but they are saying a relationship with it something bad is happening.

More

They think it's my fault.

Continuing

So, they're still doing it and presenting themselves as creatures of hate that bow down to hatred, "naked and afraid," little demon babies.

They are saying bad things are happening.

More Shit

They keep saying I am bad.

Sound of the Alarm

I'm stuck with some patheticness.

Supposedly, the people spying on me can say when someone I have a relationship with/look up to has a mean message and they are going in and making it so the other person is like that.

I'm not here to wallow in this filth, until I see the light of day again.

I can see them stretch and waste time.

Furthermore

The noises are draining my energy and making me hungry.

Hurt

These noises are really bothering me.  I felt like I was getting breast cancer.

More Problems

They are threatening me with things I do, like socially and personally.

Getting Away With It

They think they can make ticking noises in my room all day in ways that sound like they're talking to me.

They said I did something.  They are the ones who are always bothering me and being mean to me.

Thursday, June 2, 2016

More Problems for Me

They said someone I look up to is starting to be mean to me.

They think they "have something on me."

I was telling them to stop bothering me.. but they are bothering me somewhat intensely.

They keep telling me I am bad if I stomp my foot, raise my voice, and hit or throw things.  They think they can do whatever they want to me, too.  If I think something bad by accident, they sit there and bother me for a long time.

Bothering Me

They already gave me a death threat.

My dad was up this morning left late pretending it was my mom out there to get a feeling he was overcoming me with some emotion.  They keep digging into me and I don't want this relationship.  Supposedly, they said people I look up to had this happen.  My dad thinks he's all that being mean to me.

They also tried to rub in my oldest aunt in a way I don't like.

I want to hit things, but they will get mad and I usually don't want to.  I feel overly stimulated in a bad way.

Wednesday, June 1, 2016

Worthless

I don't need this acting like I'm shit all the time spying on me in private.

They think they have something on me now.

They keep getting at me cuz I thought, "You are s***."  They dare me too much about what I think, so I wasn't really able to think for a long time.  I guess it's kinda stupid, but they are too mean to me all the time.

Condemnable Sins

Someone I look up to seems to be being really mean to me, as well as the people experimenting on me, daring me to curse at them and stuff.  They affect me in negative ways.  I get bothered, and then they punish me for feeling upset.  My dad is at me like an animal.  Now, they sneakily connected me to someone else as a dad like my real one is all that and more special now.  They want to see me with babies.

Someone I Look up To and Others

I just got a new laptop, and this is my 1st post.

They said my future possible babies are of someone else and I have to have them.

They think they can take back our relationship and say not to think about them.

It sounds like someone else I look up to has to be mean to me, too.

My dad keeps making me uncomfortable.

They think it's okay to treat me like this behind closed doors.

All the Drama - Late Boomers's Fantasy

They keep acting like I'm someone with a dad born in 1950, which I am, and in a tacky way.

Ellen DeGeneres left a dump on me, that it's some drama about me being a kid with an old dad who has the older aunt and grandma in some drama of her dictated hormonal outburst, but for me to suffer and her to have nothing to do with.

Threats

They said this is in effect, my younger aunt having a relationship I have and acting like I "did something," and want to take this up with Gramma, cuz she thinks related occurrences mean something they want to think and Ellen DeGeneres thinks you have to terminate the goodness in it if it is mentioned.

I dunno..

..but I woke up and found death threats.

Grouping My Relationships

They think that other people can "get" my dad's youngest sister and group me with his other sister.  I already have a good relationship with her, but they think other people don't have to give a shit.

I'm "Dead"

They are playing around, my parents, that 2 people I look up to said I should be killed.

This experiment was about me, and they are giving out the grand prizes to others.

They think my dad's youngest sister has to be the most special, too, and think they can joke about me like I'm trash from my dad born in 1950.

They think the feelings I earned from others can be dished out to others.

Ellen DeGeneres probably is buzzing in because I want to start a new blog and she wants to ruin it for me.

They are staring at me like I'm nothing and they can do whatever they want.

How much do you think that these people who I look up to were simply allowed to drop me off a cliff?

If they think it doesn't matter, then it certainly does not matter if I get upset.

You can't talk this one off!  I don't care what you say!  (They said I should be dead.)  "Do it now, explain later."  They probably think I do things like this, too.

About my aunt, sure I could get very upset by accident.  I just didn't like how they use her against me and hold a grudge on me that I am always in trouble.  They said she is the one to be the partner of someone I and others look up to.  They think they are better and that it's funny cuz we're related.

I bet Ellen DeGeneres sunk her chops into that I used to delete posts on this problems blog, thinking I'm just sarcastic trash.

Losing It

They keep drawing upon grudges and making situations worse than they need to be in ways that make no sense.  They always bother me, fact.  I don't come in and try to start up anything.  I'm not here to chase a relationship like a dog chasing a bone hanging from a pole attached to a hat in front of their head.  I'm not a bad person!  I don't care if my parents are upset for no real reason but at me.  This looks to spell failure.  I've always been right.  You have no right to treat me like this for no reason.